|these recent days
||[Jan. 29th, 2010|09:25 pm]
...have felt like a dream ive had continuously had since i was young. my tiny existence in comparison to the universe makes me feel i need not worry about achieving the same cookie cutter life that most strive for. my only fear is that i might pass you by. that your physical presence will never be again.. maybe i think to much at times... or you might not think enough. either way.. what ever happens in the present i can only hope will feel my mind with fond memories of your eyes. if you deny the waves of love i am sending to your core.. then you will. and still i will continue to love you.
where ever i end up in the near future.. i know i will think about you every day .. i will look back on the most beautiful moments. the sound of your laugh when you totally lose control and feel joy.
and when you said you weren't worth it.. i could have shouted right in your face! "HOW COULD YOU EVEN THINK THAT" I think you know you are worth it.
random thoughts constantly fill my head..
but when i finally felt you let me in. my spirit exploded with assurance and bliss that you would not deny me forever.
cast fear aside.. act as though it doesn't exsist. this is easier said than done. but if you are able. then you will end up right where you need to be. and i hope that will be at my door step.